I turned 30 yrs old.
Kinda depressing in a way, because I havent done shit with my life. Kinda cool in a way, because when I was 18, I never thought Id make it to 30.
Getting older is scary. Im now entering the phase of life where Ill lose loved ones and eventually myself. I fear the next 30 years will be even harder than the first 30. I am truly scared.
I didnt post to hear "Happy Bday" from everyone, I did just to share my thoughts from today.
I was so depressed when I reached 30. It made me look back and see that I did nothing with myself and then made me realize that I should, I changed things after that. You can do the same thing, man. It will be an uphill battle, but the rewards in the end will be well worth it.
Happy Birthday anyway. Honestly, your 30th is just another day. don't let it bother you. this is the time you will want to make a commitment to yourself to stay healthy though. I would do a lot of things differently if I could. things will change for you, metabolism, etc. Just try to stay on top of it. I'm not saying you have to go out and become some health nut, but don't let yourself go to shit either. Just saying.
KeithReynolds wrote:I turned 30 yrs old.
Kinda depressing in a way, because I havent done shit with my life. Kinda cool in a way, because when I was 18, I never thought Id make it to 30.
Getting older is scary. Im now entering the phase of life where Ill lose loved ones and eventually myself. I fear the next 30 years will be even harder than the first 30. I am truly scared.
I didnt post to hear "Happy Bday" from everyone, I did just to share my thoughts from today.
Keith, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! But I have to say man, you are by far the unhappiest person I've ever met (online). Do me a favor and accept each breath like it's your birthday gift every day. At least be happy about that.
SkeezerBoy wrote:
But I have to say man, you are by far the unhappiest person I've ever met (online).
Im prob the unhappiest person you'd meet in real life too. Im unhappy most of the time. Smiles and laughter only come in doses.
Depression and self-loathing are what I usually feel. Most people say im a "glass is half empty" kind of guy.....but reality is, I dont even have a glass.
Nothing can fix me. I am broken. I accepted that a long time ago.
Im not looking for pity or nice words, Im just stating facts.
My friends and family have accepted me, even with all my negativity. They just know thats who I am.
Keith, do you have kids? They usually cure the Life Without Purpose malaise. Most people see their child for the first time, and life suddenly has a point.
Even so, I think you're just an impatient traveler. 30 years old is just barely out of adolescence when you look back on it. I was washed-up as a metal singer by age 30, and thought my career was over, but with maturity came even clearer focus, and I saw that I needed to CREATE a niche, instead of finding one that other people were filling and competing with them. When hairband-type stuff was on the slide in the early 90's, I started listening to country. I found like-minded dudes, and used what I'd learned in metal to stand out from everyone elase. Before that, country bands mostly played 50% Alabama, and the other half was hackneyed versions of really easy-to-play songs. We simply played what was on the radio, and cared enough to set up nice PA and lighting. We worked 3-5 nights a week, and I really didn't need a day-job. I've used that business-model ever since. Bluegrass isn't every musicians first choice, but it draws surprisingly well, and gets easier the longer you do it. There's lots of bluegrass bands, but few play bars... a shame, really, because it's good music to drink and party to. Find an empty spot, and fill it.
Maybe you need to explore, to get outside your head and find something new. We all evolve, like it or not.
Hope it's a good one!
